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CAMBIO –
A
short story by Alberto de la Cruz
The
noise and commotion awoke four year old Mariela from
her afternoon nap. She rose from her small bed in
the cramped bedroom she shared with her 17 year old
brother and with her frayed stuffed dog held tightly
to her chest, she opened the door and peeked out
into the living room of their first floor apartment
in Havana.
She noticed the dinette table had been
pushed up against the couch and one of its chairs
had been knocked over on its side. She then peered
further out and saw the front door open to the
hallway. Voices were coming from the street through
the doorway and the open windows facing the street.
Mariela then stepped out into the living
room. The voices all seemed unfamiliar, except for
the voice of her older brother, Ricky. She then
heard her mother yell above the din.
“Ricky, don’t be afraid of them! They
are nothing but cowards,” she said.
Mariela began walking toward the window
to see what was happening outside when she saw a
round white band laying on the floor in the middle
of the room. She stopped in front of it and picked
it up. It was the rubber bracelet with letters
embossed on it that her brother had been wearing on
his wrist earlier in the day. She wondered why he
had taken it off, but then she heard a scream that
sounded like her mother.
“Stop hitting him, you animals! You
bastards!”
Mariela felt a pain in the pit of her
stomach and ran out the front door of the apartment
and into the hallway. She looked out and saw her
neighbors standing outside the entry to the
building, blocking her view. With her stuffed dog
held to her chest and the bracelet still in her
hand, she walked out, pushing her way around the
legs of the people standing in front of her.
Once she got past the line of
spectators, she saw a van parked in the middle of
the street with its back doors open. She then saw
her brother, his face bloodied, being carried away
by two large men wearing police uniforms and then
thrown into the back of the van. Then she saw her
mother try to run after him only to be slapped
across the face and knocked to the ground by another
man who stood by the open doors of the van.
“Mami,” Mariela cried out.
She tried to
run to her mother who lay on the street, but she
then felt two hands grab her from behind and haul
her back into the apartment building. Mariela began
to cry, yelling out to her mother while the neighbor
from across the hall, who grabbed her and now held
her in his arms, tried to calm her down. She writhed
and pushed against the man’s chest trying to break
free, dropping her stuffed dog, but the man
maintained his grip on the little girl.
The crowd
that had gathered at the entry of the building then
parted and in walked Mariela’s mother, Carmen, her
lower lip swollen and bleeding from the blow she had
received moments earlier. Carmen saw her little girl
being held by the neighbor. She rushed to her, and
took her from him. She held the crying little girl
close to her and stroked her hair trying to calm her
down before walking back into her apartment and
closing the door behind her. She stepped into the
kitchen and with her daughter still in her arms,
grabbed a dishtowel and wiped the blood from her
lower lip and chin.
She then
walked into her own bedroom and sat down on the edge
of her bed, placing her little girl on her lap. She
continued to hold Mariela, rocking her back and
forth until the she finally stopped crying.
Mariela
leaned back to look at her mother and then reached
up to touch her swollen lip. Carmen tried her best
to manage a smile and grabbed her hand before she
could touch it.
“What happened, mami? Why did that man hit you? Did Ricky make him
mad?”
“Don’t worry, my
angel; it’s nothing like that.”
“But why did those
policemen take Ricky away?”
“It’s just a
misunderstanding and they wanted to talk to him.
He’ll be back in a little while.”
“But Ricky forgot
his bracelet,” Mariela said, holding up the white
rubber bracelet she still held in her hand.
“You can give it to
him when he gets back, my love,” Carmen replied with
a smile.
Tears began to well
up in Carmen’s eyes as she looked at the simple
white rubber band in her little girl’s hand.
“What do these
letters on the bracelet say, mami?”
“Those letters say
CAMBIO, my angel; change.”
“Why does it say
that,” the little girl asked, examining the embossed
letters on the bracelet.
Carmen could not
help but to wonder the purpose of that word herself.
Ever since her young son came home the night before
and showed her the bracelet, she knew that sooner or
later, trouble would accompany it. She tried to
convince her teenage son not to wear it in public,
but just like his father, his stubbornness would
override any of her pleas. Her son was well aware of
the consequences his actions would bring after
witnessing three years earlier the violent beating
and arrest of his father, Ricardo. Weeks after the
arrest, Ricardo was tried and convicted of
anti-revolutionary activities and sentenced to five
years in jail.
Mariela was too
young to remember, and had only seen her father a
few times in her life. Eighteen months into his jail
sentence, he was transferred to a jail on the other
side of the island. The trip to visit him became too
far to take such a young child. But Ricky had made
the trip with his mother every time. And each time
he saw his father, the torture and lack of medical
attention was more evident. And with each visit to
his languishing father, the young boy’s resolve and
resentment grew stronger.
Life had not always
been so complicated, Carmen reminded herself. Before
the birth of their daughter, she and her husband had
led, for the most part, an apolitical life. They
were neither supporters of the communist
dictatorship in Cuba, nor were they detractors; they
knew that picking either side had its consequences.
Their conscience would not allow them to cheer on an
oppressive regime like so many of their friends and
neighbors did, but their desire for a peaceful
existence precluded them from publicly showing their
discord. They had both learned to live that way from
their parents who had been around when the
revolution took power, and had chosen to remain in
Cuba.
They lived like this for
the majority of their lives, finding ways to make
ends meet with the meager jobs they were given by
the state due to their lack of political
connections. Then Mariela was born, and everything
changed.
She remembered the day
Ricardo held Mariela for the first time. While the
tears streamed down his face, he proclaimed that his
daughter would not grow up to become a jinetera;
a prostitute selling her body to foreign men in
order to put food on the family table. He had seen
the daughters and wives of many of his neighbors and
workmates take up this vile, yet profitable,
vocation, but he could never allow his own daughter
to fall into that trap.
Of course, both he and
Carmen would teach Mariela that such activities were
not an option, but he also understood the lure of
quick and easy money. He had already seen too many
nice and decent young girls fall prey to the
temptation to provide for their families in any way
they could. He also knew that the problem did not
lie in the way these girls were raised, but in the
system they were living in that made such an act a
viable solution to their misery. From that day on,
Ricardo was no longer apolitical. And soon
thereafter, Carmen understood how important it was
not to stand by and watch a repressive regime
destroy their family.
It began with passing out
pamphlets calling for the end of the dictatorship.
Ricardo then began making contacts with other
dissidents on the island and his acts of opposition
became bolder. But only a year after starting his
crusade to bring an end to the tyranny in his
country, an infiltrator in his group provided state
security with his name, and the names of several
others, as traitors to the revolution. Within days,
all of the men were arrested and soon after,
sentenced to jail.
Now her son was following
in his father’s footsteps. But as painful as it was
to watch the beating and the arrest of her own son,
the same way his father was beaten and arrested, she
knew there could be no other way.
She remembered the first
time she saw Ricardo after his arrest. She had gone
to the police station everyday for three days, and
they would turn her back without any information
other than that her husband was “being processed.”
On the fourth day, the police allowed her to see him
and led her into a windowless room where she found
him huddled on the floor in one of the corners,
shirtless with his torso covered in bruises. She
threw herself to the floor and on her knees in front
of him, held his face in both hands while she gave
him a gentle kiss.
“Oh my God, Ricardo; look
at you. What have they done to you?”
“What are you talking
about, I’m fine,” he answered with a half smile.
“I knew this wouldn’t be
worth it,” Carmen said. “What good is all of this if
you’re not going to be around to raise your
children?”
“You must be strong,
Carmen,” Ricardo replied, the smile now gone from
his face. “You have to be there for Ricky and Mariela. Don’t worry about me—take care of them.”
“Don’t say that! You have
to stop this. The kids need you! I need you!”
“The kids and you don’t
need me as much as you need your freedom and your
dignity. I will do whatever it takes and pay
whatever the price to give my family, my country,
its dignity back. Don’t cry, my love; my only regret
is not having done this earlier in my life.”
Carmen buried her face
into Ricardo’s shoulder and cried. It pained her to
see her husband in such horrid condition, but she
knew there could be no other way.
“Why does it say CAMBIO, mami,” Mariela asked
again, interrupting Carmen’s thoughts.
She smiled and looked
into her daughter’s hazel eyes. They were Carmen’s
mother’s eyes. Every time Carmen would look into
them, she would remember her own mother, Luciana,
who died years before Mariela was born. Luciana had
been diagnosed with breast cancer, and at first, all
the doctors assured her that the cancer had been
found early enough that her chances of survival were
good. She went back home and waited for the call
from the hospital to schedule her surgery and
treatment. Days turned into weeks, and weeks into
months without a call from the hospital. All her
local doctor could tell her was that it took a while
to get an appointment for surgery and that they
would call her as soon as a slot opened up.
It was then that they
realized their apolitical existence would be the
hindrance to Luciana receiving the medical care she
needed. None of them had any high level friends to
call and ask for a favor, nor could they contact the
leader of their block’s Committee for the Defense of
the Revolution for help; they were considered bad
citizens and not real revolutionaries. The system in
Cuba was reserved first for those who were true
revolutionaries, so Carmen’s mother had no choice
but to wait for treatment.
By the time she was able
to get into a hospital for surgery, the cancer had
grown and spread to her lymphatic system. It was no
longer operable, and two months later, at the age of
fifty-nine, Luciana died a painful death.
Carmen grabbed the
bracelet from her daughter’s hand and looked at the
six letters embossed into it. The letters formed the
Spanish word CAMBIO, which means change.
A simple one word message that held the solution to
the almost half-century long darkness that enveloped
her country. Only one thing could bring light and
liberty to her homeland: CAMBIO.
“The reason it says
CAMBIO, Mariela, is because it is what must
happen in Cuba.”
“Why, mami?”
“Hopefully, my angel, by
the time you’re old enough to understand, you won’t
have to worry about it.”
Carmen then pressed her
daughter’s head to her chest and held her little
body close to her as she began to cry. She looked
down and saw her tears dripping onto Mariela’s
shirt. She knew things would get much worse for them
and the country before they would get better. She
also knew that the only way her daughter would be
spared the misery they had all endured, there had to
be CAMBIO in Cuba. There could be no other
way.
Author’s
Note: This short story is a fictional account based
on true and actual events that take place in Cuba on
a regular basis. The characters in this story are
based on a culmination of real life Cubans who have
shared with me their individual stories of
repression and violence at the hands of the despotic
dictatorship that rules Cuba today. This story may
be fictional, but there are tens of thousands of
true stories, similar to this one, that have taken
place in Cuba since 1959.
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